It's weird...

...being pregnant.

Baby has been super active today. She has literally been bouncing off the walls all day long. On a normal day I feel her moving around mostly in the morning before I get out of bed (or the 3-4 times I wake up before it's actually time to get up), and in the evening after Jocelyn has gone to bed. Today, she has been trying to make herself comfortable constantly. Since I have been feeling her more, I have been thinking about her more and thinking more about the fact that I have this baby inside of me. I've been through it before and have a beautiful, funny, amazing little girl to show for it, but it's still weird to be pregnant.

You see pictures of the baby inside the womb. You certainly feel baby inside you (and now you can even see baby moving around in there from the outside as well). Your stomach certainly protrudes to make space for baby. It's obvious you're pregnant to everyone, but it's still like it's not real. I have to sit down and really think about the fact that there is this living being growing inside of me. She will come out and be a little person, with her own little personality and features. Weird. A person growing inside me. Moving around, kicking, punching, making me feel like she's about ready to burst out through my belly button at any moment, which, on a side note, is exactly how Jocelyn thinks she's going to come out anyway--when we talk about the baby she pulls my shirt up and tries to pry my belly button open to get baby out. Anyway, I just think it's weird to be pregnant. Amazing, but weird!

When I think about my pregnancy with Jocelyn it's almost like the pregnancy and the result (Jocelyn) were separate experiences. Obviously they are directly related to one another, but it seems weird to me that it was Jocelyn in there that whole time. She went from being the size of a grain of rice to the 6lb 14oz baby she came out as, to the 30lb Toddler she has become. I felt her in there the same way I feel this baby, but now I know Jocelyn--really know her. It's weird that she was the one in there the whole time!

Now I find myself thinking more about what the baby will be like--more than I thought about what Jocelyn would be like when I was pregnant with her. I wonder if she will look like Jocelyn or if she will be completely different. I wonder what her personality will be like. Will she be as laid back as Jocelyn or will she be the complete opposite? So many people have told me to brace myself--Jocelyn is such an angel and this next one will turn me for a loop. It is possible to have two great kids, right??

My predication is that this little girl won't look anything like Jocelyn. They will be those sisters that no one really believes are related--those sisters who tell the other they are obviously adopted. Maybe baby #2 will be all Mommy whereas Jocelyn is all Daddy! When it comes to personality, though, I always imagine her to be just like Jocelyn. Not exactly the same, but close enough. It's probably wishful thinking since I'm hoping she will be as easy as Jocelyn, and not the problem child everyone keeps telling me I will have. We shall see. I have hope that it is possible to have two easy children, and if not, I know I will love her just the same!

In the mean time, I will continue to watch my belly grow. I will continue to feel pushes and tugs, rolls and kicks, and be amazed at what my body can do. I'm growing a baby!

66 days to go, give or take a few days.